Do you care?

It is always there..the unsatisfied feeling inside, the disappointment that I have for myself and towards this reality. Born as a Muslim is the best blessing that Allah has given me..I’m proud of it, proud that I am a Muslim. Proud that when people see me, they will recognize me as a Muslim, proud to carry the name of Islam, proud to be called, to be labeled as a Muslim, to be part of this beautiful ummah. Reflecting my current life, it would not be as easy as said to carry this big responsibility. Living with non-Muslims is completely different from being with Muslims..because most of them do not know what this religion teaches, the prohibitions, the responsibilities, etc. But we have to do whatever it takes to portray the best about this Deen, not making it as pretence but it is merely the truth. However, life is always challenging. You need to smile while your heart..only He knows how rebellious it is towards their lifestyle. How noisy, disgusting, dirty, and everything that you hate..later on you still put a smile on your face. It’s not because you are trying to be a hypochrite, but because you love your Deen, and you know that they might judge it just by looking at the way you live, interact, etc..Most people tend to extract the essence of one religion through the people who practice it..so that’s why one of our tasks is to deal with the misconceptions that people always have for Islam. If you Muslims know how big our responsibility is..you would be more aware of what you are doing, but sadly speaking not many realize it. I am sad of my incapabilities of carrying out this responsibility..but I do hope that He has counted my tiny effort and recorded it as ‘done’. But I just found it so hard to see how other people could just throw away Islam from their hearts. They become so ignorant, and take Islam on-and-off whenever they like. How would you do that? This is so disheartening..and when someone gives you advice, then you want to rebel. You get angry by the concern that people have for you, and pull it the other way around, just to firm your stand. The truth will never be defeated, although you are trying so hard to win your ego and stubbornness. You twisted here and there, or not twisted here and there..but still your actions display the same message. We always ask Him to give us the lights to our souls, to guide our path, to make us the people of Jannah, and prevent us from His great punishments in the Hell..but how much do we understand those prayers..? Should not be just beautiful repertoires..i guess. When people are trying to correct your mistakes, trying to tell you that you are doing wrong..take it as the light that Allah is giving you. If we advise you on something that you enjoy doing, we definitely are not jealous or envy with whatever you have..but instead we feel sorry for you, and we want you to come back. If we ignore you, that’s because sometimes we feel so hard to pamper you and make you happy of having something or doing something that we know is not right. And we don’t know how to say it honestly to you..but if we are able to say it, directly or indirectly, take it easy and don’t get angry. Doesn’t mean that we do not love you..we do. Don’t put your Deen at the same level as other things..because it should be valued more than anything else. If you know the price of it for someone who is struggling to find the right path, then you now know what I mean. Don’t be too proud with what you have, with the way you live, with any advantages that you are bestowed with..because you are never that great, you will never ever be able to live on your own without His rahmah. Just try your best to be grateful, and try you best to please Him, as much as you want to please people or someone dearest to your heart. If most people do something, doesn’t mean that you have to follow. Because that does not mean they are doing the right thing, although they still have something that you can learn from. You are big enough to realize your aims for this life, and know which one can be followed and which one should be gotten rid of. Trust His promise, that every sacrifice for the sake of Allah will get great rewards. Never contemplate doing any wrongdoings, but trust His words and always seek His guidance. If you could give your best and sacrifice a lot to make other people happy; to make your parents happy, to make your siblings happy, to make your friends happy, to make your husband/wife happy..because you love them sooo much, and they have done a lot for you..why couldn’t you do the same for Him?? He has done greater and greater work for you, gave you the things that you wanted, things that you longed for. He even gives you the blessings that you never asked for..don’t you think that He deserves more than anyone else? You asked Him to make you pass the exams, and He gave it. You asked Him to give you good health..and alhamdulillah you don’t suffer any diseases. You asked Him to give you happiness..and alhamdulillah you are living in a happy family. You asked Him to allow you to further your studies oversea, and alhamdulillah now that you are here. You asked Him to give you guidance, and now He is providing you the way to His Jannah..but why you don’t want to take it?? I don’t mind if someone wants to get angry with me or keeps unpleasant feelings for me, because honestly I’m not too keen of having a friendship that based on things like that. I would just happy to leave it, if that is the best thing to do. There are still lots of people out there that know the values of friendship, and have the same ‘fikrah’ with me..inshaAllah. And I would happy to go for it..=)

“The most unwise person is someone who is trying to get away from His guidance”

p/s: reminding myself through my words.. Wassalam wa rahmatullah.